Just to let your know....

Ok, so I just want to start of saying that I really do hate people that bitch about every single thing in they’re life. Its depressing and just brings everyone down. I never do that in real life. But that’s why I decided to start a blog. I’ve had one before on a different site, but shit went down that wasn’t pretty.

I think the main reason I need to vent is because my family is filled with ass holes. I’m 21 and I still live at home. I have no car, a shitty job, and friends that I can’t really be totally honest with.

I think I’m sick though. Mentally, that is. I have past issues with anorexia, bulimia, and self injury. Because of the eating disorders, I still don’t have a good relationship with food. I’m pretty much over it, but I still have my moments. I’m seriously think I’m going to relapse. I’ve gained so much weight, its not even funny. I try to deal with all the bull shit in my life now with cigarettes, drinking, promiscuity, and marijuana. The only thing that still really bugs me is the promiscuity. I was saving myself for marriage, but now I have a, “what the hell, I don’t give a fuck.” attitude.

Let me know if you can relate. I think it would really help if I knew I wasn’t alone.

-Krystal

P.S. Krystal is and alias name. My real name won’t be posted publicly for personal reasons.